its that time of year again mum. we would be getting everthing ready for xmas. worring about if we got enough food .everthing is just so meaningless for me .i not only lost my mum i losted my best friend. phill says how much he misses you and things just get harder . the pain and loss we feel will never go away.cirby and cyle miss there nan so much .so much saddness we all feel in our hearts, so much loss. i no you are with us all, and keeping us safe . i love you mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx